Knock Knock...

"Knock Knock.... Hellllooooo? God, are you there? Knock Knock Knock... God??? God???? Oh come on, open the door! God?..."

Sometimes, I feel like I am standing on one side of a door, and God is on the other, hiding, just waiting for me to leave so that he can start walking around and relaxing home alone... Like I am knocking and knocking, calling and calling, and not getting an answer, like those pesky visitors that you didn't invite, and don't want to see, the ones that just WILL NOT take a hint and leave.

I find that at some times when I feel I really need Him, He doesn't answer me, that He is too busy helping others with bigger problems, so why would He have time for me? I mean, there's that earthquake in China, isn't He probably flat out busy getting all His angels organised and helping all the people over there? Or protecting that little girl on the rough side of town that's being beaten by her daddy? So why am I disturbing Him?

I know why... it's because God WANTS us to disturb Him. Our heads might be arguing that we don't need to bother God with this one, that we can do it ourselves... but the Holy Spirit, the living breath of God inside us, tells our hearts different. It tells our hearts the truth. We are SUPPOSED to turn to God with our problems. He is our Heavenly Father, creator of all we are and all we have. He is powerful and strong, gentle and loving, caressing and comforting, SOVEREIGN and GOOD.

He loves each and every one of us, and He knows that we have to make our mistakes to grow, but He helps us to learn from them, and He is there to pick up the pieces when we DO make those mistakes. As children of God, we don't NEED to run and hide, we don't NEED to try and take it all on ourselves. When we call, He answers... I think that sometimes, we just need to try harder to listen to Him, to see his signs and read his language.

I have a new favourite verse, and it so clearly describes the love of God to His children...

Romans 5:8 - But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

I love that... the stark truth of those words. We were, and are, sinners. We aren't worthy of His love, we have done nothing to deserve all He bestows upon us... But, he does it anyway, because he loves us. He made the ultimate sacrifice in order to show us that Love.

Blessings.